Hello darlings! What do you think about love? Do you believe it’s the most incredible thing ever? Or do you absolutely hate it? Well, I think that either way, either you love it or hate it, there comes a point where you want it, or worse yet, where you need it. I think I’ve got to this point, and I really don’t like it. I’m a pretty independent girl and the thought of needing someone else to feel complete or to feel loved terrifies me. Don’t get me wrong, I love love! I think there’s a possibility that I’m in the Top 10 Most Hopeless Romantics. However, everyone around me seems to be finding the love of their lives and they all seem so complete, so full of life and love, and I’m so happy for all of them but, when is that going to happen to me? Will it ever happen? And that’s the thing that scares me the most, what if it doesn’t? And every time I start asking myself this question (which, sadly, happens very often) I remember all the times when I’ve wanted something and got sad or angry when I didn’t get it, only to find out that I got something better after, because maybe I just had to wait for the right timing, the precise moment, maybe I wasn’t ready before. Yesterday I read something that really got to me, it was about a girl that didn’t want to give a piece of her peanut butter chocolate chip bagel to her dog, she said that it seemed as if the dog wanted that more than anything else in the world, however, he couldn’t understand how bad he would feel if he ate it. The girl in the story said, “When I do not give in, she eventually gives up and lays in the corner, under the piano, drooping and sad. I hope the universe has my best interest in mind like I have my dog’s. When I want something with my whole being, and the universe withholds it from me, I hope the universe thinks to itself: Silly girl. She thinks this is what she wants, but she does not understand how it will hurt.” So maybe I just have to wait a little longer. Maybe it’s still not the right time, maybe the love of my life is not ready, maybe I’m the one who’s not ready. So, what about you? Have you found your soulmate? Or do you still have to wait for that perfect moment?
With all the love in my heart,